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Emily Parnell
on May 25 2013 - 06:00 AM
Do you want something great to happen? You better start doing something.
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Christi Diggs
on May 23 2013 - 06:00 AM
A drop of spin, a cup of deception and tsp. politics=Apathy
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Lindsay Metcalf
on May 22 2013 - 06:00 AM
When that tornado siren sounds, I'm in the basement
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mara williams
on May 21 2013 - 06:00 AM
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Sorting out the thoughts in my head is often an impossible task. Sometimes it lasts a day, or the days stretch into weeks. If the muddled-ness lasts more than a week, I start to worry and well, if the fog-brain lasts into months, I would say outside intervention would be required. With much gratitude, I haven’t been there-yet, because today I have a choice.
It has been one of those weeks, where juggling was a required skill and I had to take a crash course. Friendship and moral support had to prevail over required sleep, done with absolutely no regrets. Purse strings were tightened, not by choice but by plain, old circumstance, and personal pride had to be pocketed temporarily, realizing that sometimes asking for help doesn’t make one weak, but requires resourcefulness and a lot of strength.
I had to put my current writing project on the back burner for a few days, which brought disillusionment and projected failure. Thankfully, a group of chicks who dig history kept up the spirit with virtual cheers, and I pulled through the slump, finally enabling me to hit my personal goal for the week and encouraging myself to set a new goal. The age old “cup half-empty or half-full” choice sits before me and today I choose to say my project is half-complete. That deserves a woot! Woot!
There was some disappointment when something I really, really needed and more than wanted didn’t come to fruition, which leaves me at an impasse. I hate nothing more than being at that fork in the road and being completely unsure of what direction I should take. But, what I do know is that I have another group of friends that pray with me, that the choice will be apparent and that whichever direction I take, I will learn and grow from it. So I pray with them.
I have prayed a lot this week, because when there are a lot of thoughts in your head, the One that I believe in always helps me to make sense of my jumbled mind. I prayed for a friend who lost her husband to cancer, that awful C-word which I continually pray that the great scientists and doctors will find a cure for. I prayed for the mother-in-law of another friend, who is sick with cancer as well, and their family. I prayed for my family, that they live through my ineptitude and my constant journey of learning and change. I prayed for prayers of forgiveness, not only that I will be forgiven, but that I will have a forgiving heart, because this is a constant problem within me and I have to work on it. I have a harder heart than I care to admit-and I want it to be softer, more pliable, and much more loveable.There were some little things-the realization that the cat’s claws caused the little tiny holes in my C-Pap tubing. I couldn’t stay too mad at my furry friend; I just needed to take some action to keep him away from the enticing “toy”. Since, new tubes have arrived and I had a great night’s sleep last night.
A doctor’s appointment for my daughter brought some much needed insight, not only for her but also for me. Stopping, sitting and listening- these are three great prescriptions for un-jumbling a cluttered mind. I only wish I could apply it to a cluttered house.
This all brings me to today-sorting out and filing away the last week or two of junk in my mind. There was so much crud in there, a little mismanaged and unorganized, but all useful in one way or another. My choice today is to sit in the quagmire of my mind and feel sorry for myself, or be thankful for the ability to take all those fragments, feelings and ideas and do something with them, whether I use them to go or grow, maybe even both.
Today my mind and my heart choose to go and grow. I have no idea where that path will take me, I am forever grateful for the opportunity to make that choice.
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